Trauma!!
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
Lilly went to her first day of part time daycare today. She was fine. I wasn't. I cried the whole way there, all while checking her in, while talking to the teacher for 30 minutes (until I ran out of stuff to ask about), while leaving her there, while running errands, while at the mall (this was supposed to be my day of shopping without Lilly who does not like to let me try anything on). Basically, I spent the entire day crying and checked on Lilly four times. Each time she was perfectly fine. Each time I was more traumatized.
How could she be fine and I be a basket case? I have never felt so lonely and sad. It just felt like part of me was missing. I didn't feel any of the "freedom" I expected. Instead, I got into the car and cried when I heard her nursery rhyme music and then again when I found her little socks in my purse. You would think I had some wacky hormones going on or something. I swear I'm not pregnant or anything though.
The strangest thing about having her in daycare was not knowing exactly what she was doing all day. I don't like the food they gave her, so I'm bringing her food from now on. I used the excuse that we're Jewish and I don't want her to eat pork. I never thought I fed her that well until I saw what they feed the kids. Hello, Pop Tarts do not qualify as a nutritious breakfast and hot dogs are not a nutritious lunch. So, I'll be bringing what I consider to be good meals.
posted by Avorie @ 4:49 PM,
2 Comments:
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At 10:39 PM,
Amanda and Tim said...
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Awwww! I was just wondering how you had both got on! Believe me when I say you are not the only mommy to cry lots - I've seen many cry when they leave their babies for the first time!! It's a natural response!
As to pop tarts and hot dogs... WHAT?!?! Seriously - we would be shot if we fed our babies anything less than good quality, homecooked food and also we have a dietary system where we cater specifically for special diets like no pork and also allergy sufferers... I guess that's one area we manage to do well over here. -
At 4:04 AM,
liz said...
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It will get easier.
The nice thing for you is that this is a choice--and Lilly will LOVE playing with the other boys and girls.
Once you get to used to it, you'll be hitting the mall like pro. And the time will FLY.
I'm currently toying with the idea of putting H in a similar situation, so I can clean the house or do the grocery shopping or get a mani/pedi or read a book or take a nap or have some time for myself. I'm sure it won't be nearly as easy as I think it will be.
