Looking Back...
Sunday, April 26, 2009
Nearly eight months ago, I presented Hubby with a card. All it said was, "May 11, 2009". It took him a while to figure out that it meant we were having another baby in May. I was so excited. After all, a second pregnancy was dream-come-true. A few years ago, I wasn't sure I'd live to see Lilly grow much less be healthy enough to have a second child.And here I am, living this part of my dream. Although it's hard at times and I'm very nervous about my health and being able to care for two children. I'm very happy to be living my life - even with all it's unknowns.
I had forgotten how difficult pregnancy can be. The first trimester was just horrible. I was sick and depressed. It slowly got better, but didn't really enjoy things until the third trimester, when I realized that pregnancy, like anything else in life, is what you make of it. Knowing this might be my last pregnancy, I set out to make it more memorable - even if it meant doing things I would normally have been to shy to do.
So, I had Hubby do a belly cast, which turned out amazingly well. I'm not sure what I'll do with it, but I'm so happy to have something showing how I looked while 35 weeks pregnant. I also scheduled "professional" maternity photos. I didn't go the cheap route either. I knew the photos were expensive, but it was so important that I was willing to just buy two of them. They turned out beautifully, but when it came down to it, I couldn't spend that much on photos. So, for less money than I would have spent on photos, I ordered some basic lighting equipment and tried to take my own. It took a while to learn how to use the equipment and get some decent pictures. They are not quite as nice, but I'm quite happy with them. And now that I have the equipment, I can take more artistic newborn photos as well.
So now that I have a week before my scheduled c-section, I find myself looking back over this pregnancy, comparing it to my first, debating whether or not I'm uncomfortable to the point of wishing the baby would be born early (depends what moment you ask), and having some conversations with the baby about how we're excited to meet him and what the world is like. I did that with Lilly too. I remember telling her that the world is a wonderful place filled with all sorts of things to experience and people to meet. She must have taken it to heart because she's the most delightfully happy child with such a spark in her eyes.
I'm excited to meet our new little guy. A recent ultrasound showed he has hair. Lilly and I were both born nearly bald, so I suspect he'll have a full head of dark hair like Hubby. Hubby's family is so large and sometimes overwhelming that I do hope baby has something of me as well. But more than that, I hope he will be a mommy's boy and that we will have a special connection.
Progress so far: I'm 50% effaced, 1 cm dilated, and have crossed the line into "extremely uncomfortable" territory. I'm ready to have this baby. I'm just waiting for him to be ready or for my c-section date, whichever comes first. Interestingly enough, the further along I am, I the less contractions I have. But tonight they have picked up again. They are totally irregular, but I'm happy to having them anyway. Send me good vibes!
posted by Avorie @ 7:32 PM,
1 Comments:
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At 10:36 PM,
Reesh said...
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Sending lots of good vibes your way!! I am very excited for you as I know you were very worried after having Lilly that you might not ever have kids again - yay and hurray and yippee!! You did it Mumma and you're going to LOVE having 2 - it's so much easier to accept the second child into your life and routine. And my girls have such a great relationship now and it's just been so wonderful to watch it unfold before my very eyes.
