Yippee! I Finally Fit Back into Pre-pregnancy Clothes!
Monday, May 19, 2008
Yippee! I finally fit back into my pregnancy clothes (baby is over 2 now)! It feels great! Of course, I haven't worn those cloths in three to four years (season, pregnancy, postpartum weight) so they are a bit outdated. But still... It makes me happy to look in the mirror and see me (plus some stretch marks and all).
A lot has changed in the last few months. I went back to my GI doctor for my 6 month follow-up (finally feeling better from a postpartum flareup of ulcerative colitis). I had a serious conversation with her about having another baby. She said that since I have been in remission and off steroids for over 6 months, she's perfectly comfortable with me having another baby as long as I stay on my immune suppressants. If I get off the medicine, she's not sure I can gain control over the UC again - even with steroids. So no medicine = no baby. But if I stay on the medicine I can have a baby but not breastfeed. This drug is a class D drug, but the studies show that a low dose increases the chance of a birth defect very slightly over the standard population. She has had several patients use it through pregnancy and never had a problem. Since my OB is uncomfortable/unfamiliar with the drug, the GI doctor recommended that I see a OB that treats most of her pregnant patients and is very familiar with my condition and drugs during pregnancy. So, I'm going to schedule an appointment with the new OB to discuss it.
Now that this is a real possibility, I'm getting a bit excited. Even though Lilly is in the middle of her two's and is quite a challenge, I really want to do this again. In fact, I kind of want two more. Now I just have to talk Hubby into this. I don't think he realizes I'm am serious - but I am. I even bought a Basel thermometer and those ovulation test strips. Of course, now that I have them, I'm a little nervous. Last time I didn't know what I was getting into. Lilly was a surprise so we've never actually sat down and said, "Let's have a baby". Also I know about horrible morning sickness, exhaustion, and everything that goes along with pregnancy (and my whole episode with UC after). And then the sleepless nights with a newborn... I'd like to think that the learning curve will be shorter because we know how to take care of a baby now. However, as time goes on, I think I forget more and more.
Yeah I'm getting the baby bug. How can I not. Pregnant women and babies are everywhere. I have two main social groups. The first a playgroup that has been getting together on Fridays since all the babies were about 6 weeks old. Some of the mom's have had their second children already and most of them are pregnant again. I look at them and just wish that I could be doing this all again (except the getting sick thing). I don't want to have another baby simply because all my friends are doing it. If we have another baby it needs to be because we, as a family are ready. It's just that I'm surrounded by it and it seems like such a natural thing to do now. I don't want Lilly to be an only child and always dreamed of having three (until I saw how much work one was - but still).
The other social group I have is a group of mom's whose kids are in Lilly's preschool class. They have from one to three kids, with at least one or two of them being pregnant at any given time. So, really. It's everywhere I look.
Give me a mini-van. I'm ready... I'm even planning to move my home office to my bedroom so that the new baby has his/her own room. Yikes... I just hope it happens. I have so many friends who struggled with infertility and I think some of the medicines I've taken over the past two year affect fertility.
It's much easier to be surprised and say, "we're going to take the cards dealt to us and run with them" than plan this and look back say, "We did this on purpose".
posted by Avorie @ 6:36 AM,
1 Comments:
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At 1:04 PM,
Isabel said...
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Oh my goodness!
First off...WELCOME back to the land of blogging. I've missed you.
Secondly, congrats on fitting into your pre pregnancy clothes.
And thirdly...good luck with the whole "having another baby thing".
(Although I'm with you...it's scare to think about doing it on "purpose". While we had had two failed pregnancies before Babboo....that pregnancy was an accident!)
