Where have I been?
Thursday, July 20, 2006
I haven't really posted much lately. Hubby doesn't want me to post any more pictures of Lilly because she's so beautiful and there are so many freaks out there. I haven't been inspired to keep up my blog since I can't post pictures. I still read everyone else's though.
Lilly is as cute as ever - maybe even more so. You'll have to take my word for it.
I, on the other hand have been having a few problems. My stomach (Crohn's disease) got really bad. I was so bad that I went to an allergist and asked him to test and see if I had any allergies that could be aggravating the problem. As it turns out, I'm allergic to almost everything. So, now I'm on a diet of the following:
beef
cantaloupe
avocado
cheese
ice cream
eggs
That's literally all I eat. After a week of this, I'm starting to notice a huge improvement. On one hand I'm happy that something is finally helping (I've tried three Crohn's drugs but have been allergic or unresponsive to each). On the other hand, I cannot imagine eating this diet for any extended period of time. I cannot eat any other meats or fish and can have absolutely no grains (corn, rice, wheat, oats, etc...). It's really hard. And I thought a strict dairy-free diet was difficult...
I've obviously been having a difficult time lately. Motherhood is quite an adjustment and when you add Crohn's (which I never had until 2 month postpartum) to mix then throw in multiple food allergies, well, you've just removed my last freedom - what I eat!
You wouldn't know that I love food from looking at me, but I do. I'm a food snob. I'm very picky, but I really enjoy good food. I eat it slowly and savor every bite. Until now. Now I just eat beef and there isn't much you can do with beef if you can't eat it with veggies or grains. So, I eat it with eggs, avocados, cheese or cantaloupe for every meal, which obviously doesn't add up to enough calories. Never mind that we keep a kosher kitchen and can't mix meat and cheese (I just put it on a paper plate and use plastic utensils for now). I'm actually allergic to dairy too, but it's not as strong of an allergy as some other things and I need the calories.
Just walking though Whole Foods make me jealous of all the people who can eat normal food. I swear, I loose 5 lbs by looking at food that I'm not able to eat. It's amazing to see the number of foods that contains corn syrup or any type of flour.
I'm going to a post partum therapist on Monday. This has all been too difficult to cope with and I finally decided that it would help to talk with someone. I hope it helps because I could use a little help.
posted by Avorie @ 3:38 PM,
4 Comments:
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At 6:02 PM,
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Avorie, I've read your blog since before Lilly's birth but I don't think I've commented before. I miss seeing photos of her but I certainly understand your husband's hesitation in posting them.
Please keep blogging and let us know how you're doing. I'm sure your online friends can provide some support and encouragement as you're going through this rough time.
You're in my thoughts -- Hugs to you and Lilly! -
At 11:12 PM,
Kristin said...
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I've been wondering what's been going on with you & Lilly as well. The three blogging moms that I will always & forever think about are you, Reesh & Corrine. We all had our babies at about the same time & it was so exciting to read everyones birth stories & see the cute babies. I too understand your husbands no picture stance. It's something I considered myself.
I hope you feel better soon & I know Lilly is just beautiful. -
At 11:12 PM,
Isabel said...
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Avorie, I hate to hear that you are doing so well. It sounds like you really have been dealt a crappy hand. But I'm also glad that you're going to try to get some help. I hope it helps you feel better.
(And I understand hubby's desires...but I will miss seeing Lilly get bigger. I bet she's so mobile now!)
Good luck with the diet. It sounds miserable.
You are my hero. -
At 7:54 PM,
liz said...
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Avorie, keep on trucking girlfriend.
I'm so sorry to read about your food troubles. I can't imagine what it must be like for you, but you're strong and exceptional and I have faith that you'll pull through this. Now, gall bladder issues are no Crohn's disease, but I thought I'd never get over the dietary restrictions, but now I'm used to it. And once I figured out what I could and couldn't eat, I think I'm actually gaining weight (much to my chagrin).
You're in my thoughts. A hearty GOOD FOR YOU for reaching out. To the internets and to a post partum specialist.
Hang in there...
