Playing G-d?
Sunday, May 25, 2008
I started charting my cycle with a Basel thermometer, ovulation predictor kit, and iVillage's fertility calendar. Ivillage has a neat tool and over the last two weeks, I've learned a lot about charting and fertility signs. But, it also makes me nervous. Am I playing G-d by trying to determine the best time for conception? If I make it happen will I be overriding what would have happened naturally and missing out on the baby nature intended me to have?Maybe, with the fertility tracking stuff, I could get pregnant this month or next (and avoid late pregnancy during the hot Dallas summer). But, what if the baby that I'm determined to make now wouldn't be same one that I would get naturally by ignoring fertility signs and just letting it happen over the next few months or year. Maybe that's the baby I am "supposed" to have?
Am I reading too much into this?
posted by Avorie @ 11:08 AM,
1 Comments:
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At 2:07 AM,
Amanda and Tim said...
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I'm so glad to hear that you are able to start trying for another baby if you so wish. I can't imagine how hard a decision it must be for you, with underlying fears as you've just expressed. I shall be holding good thoughts for you and look forward to hearing more! xx
