Sleep Deprivation
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
I was up with Lilly 6 times last night! I don't know what we're doing wrong, but I have to fix it. I just can't cope with this little sleep. I was so exhausted this morning that I was in tears and convinced that Lilly doesn'tlike me. I know it's irrational, but she does not react to me like she reacts to Hubby. She always has smiles and grins for him but not me. He can comfort her so easily and I can't. All she seems to want from me is milk. It just makes me sad and I feel jealous when I see Lilly and Hubby interacting. I shouldn't. I'm very happy that she has such a wonderful father. I just wish she had that connection with me too. I think part of what's causing me to feel this way is that I was pretty much raised by my mother. My dad was around for the first 11 years, but we were not close. My dad is an alcoholic and drug addict. He only held me once when I was a baby and he never really wanted to be a father. After my parents were divorced, we were on our own for a few years, until my mom remarried when I was 15. I wasn't close to my step-father either and now he is gone. The bottom line is that I've never been around a man that was close to his children and somehow I feel threatened by Hubby amazing relationship with Lilly.
posted by Avorie @ 10:16 AM,
2 Comments:
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At 12:25 PM,
Isabel said...
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I'm sure it's hard to see her with him, when you feel like she doesn't even like you.
But of course she likes you. She loves you so much.
I think it's great that your husband and Lilly have such a great bond.
Good luck with the sleep. I don't even know what to say about that. Except...good luck!! -
At 1:01 PM,
Corinne said...
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I'm sorry... I really hope that things improve for you guys. I know the opposite is happening at our house. Shepherd is all happy with me, but screams with Forrest. That changed this weekend, when Forrest was home. He was holding Shepherd, and getting very frustrated. I reminded him that babies sense frustration. That seemed to help... I've had a rough time in the daytime when Forrest isn't here and Shepherd gets on one of his screaming fits... I've had to put him in the crib and walk out of the room and calm myself down because I know that if I'm frustrated, Shepherd will get even more so. Another thing? You might want to check out The Happiest Baby on the Block. Granted, it's written mainly for colicky babies, but it has some good tips in it. My favorite? The Shushing in the ear of the baby... if you shush for a while right in their ears when they are upset, it will calm them down (sometimes). Anyways... sorry if I've gone on and on... I know how hard it can be, and how all the advice trickles in to. Just know that you're the best mommy that Lily could ask for!! You're doing great, and I'm sure it will get better!!! :-D
